Sunday, November 05, 2006

the best thinking moments

..they were talking about her precious gem. The one she knew so well, and loved. And it felt so strange to hear someone else talking about him, critisizing him, failing to see what she saw. And she couldn't help but resist, and maybe she shouldn't have. She wanted to be there without him, but they brought him up. And all of a sudden it was like a train, at high speed and maximum momentum, and she was in it, but she was still..not moving.


... It was taken all away, ever since the beginning.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

on the fingers of one hand

mmm, I was thinking today. Not that I didn't have anything better to do, but, I was thinking. Janice loves to use the word Princess... granted, since it's her profession; and well, I tried to make a list of all the people who made me feel like a princess in my life.

First and foremost there's my Nannu.
Many people seem to have had a special relationship with their grandparents. He was quiet, reseved and strict. But he had a soft spot for me. I was his gal. I still remeber the cosy feeling of his embrase. We used to spend endless hours playing Bella Donna, and Bella Donna halliela. And I know he always let me win. My mum says he was a chain smoker, but he never smoked in my presence. He was tall and sleak for his age. I came across some photos of when he was younger, the other day, and let me tell you, he was a real charmer. Nanna says he was a playboy before they got married; no wonder! His family was poor but nonetheless he studied and became a nurse, after being a bus driver for I don't know how long. I didn't go to see him when he was in hospital. I wouldn't have bared to have him look at me and not recognize me. I think of him almost every day. He is my guardian angel, I'm sure.

Well, now the other people who made me feel like a princess will look a bit dull compared to him, but anyway, they are all very special just the same.

There's Janice obviously. She makes me feel special.. even though we don't meet much she really keeps me on top of her lists all the time. We are oh so different but we actually celebrate this.. our friendship is, I would say: sizzling.

There's Dz.. I don't need to go into much detail here..given the elogju I wrote a few days ago. But yes, he does make me feel special.

Then there's another person. No need to mention his name but he was the one that inspired me to write this blog. He said something once, which I will remember for the rest of my life. Something you would say to someone you really think highly of. And well, I started thinking highly of this person ever since.

Now that's quite a long list of special people..